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2009-10-24T13:10:00.002+08:00

wont you take my hand and explore the world together?
we'll be in boston today, seattle tomorrow,
how about milan, or paris next?
we can cross out states and countries listed on the map;
we'll make the world our home.
take my hand, and we'll set flight together,
into the sunset.

words dont mean a thing.

2009-09-09T10:28:00.003+08:00

文字再怎么动听也只不过如此。
你编出来哄人的故事还是留给自己听吧。

waiting for your call.

2009-09-02T22:12:00.001+08:00

coz im just sitting here by the phone waiting for it to ring.

mm.

2009-08-29T19:11:00.001+08:00

let me soak in this lukewarm bath of bliss.
i think im coming close to an answer.

first day of uni second yr

2009-07-20T13:37:00.002+08:00

i got freaked out by the silence... until i hear the drilling from i-dont-know-where T.T

i'll eventually get used to it. and everything will be alright again. and thankyou, for u made me realise that im not alone :)

in need of some attention.

2009-06-04T22:50:00.002+08:00

like a spoilt child, sulking away.
but. there's no point putting thoughts into words. let them all remain unsaid.
and thus, like a spoilt child, im sulking away.

it's time to stop, dont u agree?

2009-05-22T14:36:00.001+08:00

when words are devoided of meaning, and questions merely serve as fillers.

HOW CAN!

2009-05-07T21:52:00.002+08:00

im super traumatized. first, dhssb junior and senior high got S. now im told aj and cj got GWH.
tmd la. how is THAT possible. seriously. GWH lehhhhh. aj lehhhhhhhh.
(!*&^%$#!$%)
what's wrong the judges! urgh.

2009-04-24T20:59:00.002+08:00

finally. everything's returning to normal. albeit the part that normality only comes every weekend. still, this is salvation for me. i love weekends.

2009-04-23T02:00:00.002+08:00

seriously, okie loh. if that's what you want. it has zero opportunity cost on me.
to think that i was being nice.
okie loh.

random

2009-04-18T16:47:00.004+08:00

im a bit hurt. but i guess it's alright.
they'll always be her friends, not mine. so it doesnt matter if i fit in or not.

guess i've got better things to do than think through this childish stuff like some grade sch kid. so screwed for my psy report, psyc essay and socy essay. omgg.

hello chang, happy birthday!

2009-03-23T08:25:00.003+08:00

if i have to spend this day all alone 6226.8km away from home, i rather not know the significance of today.
actually, i've totally forgotten about it. it's only when i saw bro's birthday reminder on my hp that it finally occured to me it's soon soon.

i woke up early today, very early in fact (by my standard) to check my letterbox. i was hoping it would be flooded with mails. but :( aus post sucks.
i hate today. i've been feeling damn horrible ever since the clock on my laptop turned 12am last night/this morning.

i miss my last birthday.

okie, shall quit being an emo-shit. time for class soon.
happy birthday chang!
and a BIG thankyou to all who wished me happy birthday.

tmr's 1st day of sch, oh no!

2009-02-22T20:13:00.003+08:00

for people who still dont know, im already back in canberra. my luggage was a whooping 28.6kg or so. totally freaked me out cos when i packed my luggage, my weighing scale screamed 25kg. luckily, i got away without paying for overbaggage for both my sq and qantas flight. heng~

it took me soo many days to unpack my luggage and the stuff i left behind. anyway, i realised i barely have any clothes. =( i wonder why my luggage was so heavy when i have less than 10sets of tops (excl jackets, coats and stuff). need to go shopping soon.

it's suppose to be summer here but, it's so chilly. people wear tshirt, shorts and slipper again, but it's so cold i hardly on the air con. such weird weather here! and anyway, it's gonna be autumn soon! i love autumn. i was so happy when i figured my birthday falls in autumn here xD it's such a beautiful season. falling leaves, chilly air, trenchcoat, early sunset... i'm sooo looking forward to autumn.

anyway, it feels quite weird to live alone. guess im too used to staying in a 5bedroom apartment. it's like, everyone's so far away. it used to be a few steps away to my roomie's room. and we used to cook together. now im so lazy i cant be bothered to cook. in the past, i was motivated to cook when i see all my roomies cooking away during meal times. but now. ah well.

tmr's the start of sch! dieeeeeeeeeee~ im in a super siann mood. it's already 11plus pm but it feels like it's 3pm or sth if i dont look out of the window. my body clock is totally screwed up. wish me luck tmr and get to make loads of friends!

enough of me ranting and reminisce. this is the link the photos of my new room for the day:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=68935&id=690770734&l=086a7

pissed

2009-02-01T22:31:00.002+08:00

recent events left her disgusted, pissed and very much disturbed. she thought this place where she belongs would offer her some respite from ___; she was very naive indeed.
no food nor event can ever induce her to come back so often anymore.

sch starts again

2009-01-05T16:58:00.001+08:00

it's a monday. and the whole world disappeared. everyone's back in school again. sighh.

xmas eve

2008-12-24T16:43:00.004+08:00

xmas eve. i woke up at 11plus. checked for any sms. none. went back to sleep again. woke up again at 3plus. switched on comp and tv. ransacked the kitchen for food.
such as a depressing xmas eve. and the weather doesnt help at all. ah well.

random

2008-12-21T12:07:00.017+08:00

been sooo lazy to blog. nothing much to blog about anyway.

went beijing for about 9days. indulge in loads of chinese food which i was so deprived of when im stuck in canberra. went shopping with my cousin (whom i've not seen for at least a decade) and bought some winter wear, dvd/cds and random stuff. oh yes. i went to bird nest and 水立方. nothing much to see there, plus the entrance tix are so ex. so yes. i wouldnt recommand anyone to visit this two places.

anyway, the main reason why im blogging again all of a sudden is because of jessie la. she repeatedly insisted that i should blog about our dinner at chong pang market and that i should post photos of the pressents they gave me. so yea.

went out for dinner at cp market with chris, jessie, rich khoo and doris. everyone's still as funny as before. and it's such a pity i didnt record down the entire conv with chris cos i can use the tapes to blackmail him. LOLL. and he has a memory slightly better than a goldfish; he keeps asking 'how are you' every few mins. tskk. and poor doris looked so sleepy and tired throughout the entire evening. so amusing. anyway, we all took 969 home after the dinner. so yea. that's bout it i guess.

xmas mood

2008-11-09T18:09:00.002+08:00

17hrs to my first paper >.< did one past year paper today. going to do another one before i go to bed.
im so dead. i've never felt so unprepared before. i only studied 1 out of 6chapters for psyc. and there's ALOT to read and remember. and. psyc is only the day after tmr. which leaves me with around 20hrs to mug (provided that i do nth at all but mug). bio paper is on fri. so i've got about 2days to mug. so far, i have read 4 out of 9sets of lec notes for cancer. totally haven touch infectious diseases. so ya. long long week ahead.
luckily i've stocked up on instant oats and cereals. my food supply can definately last me for more than a week without using the stove at all for all my meals. so basically, i can settle my meal in 2mins in total for instant oats and less than a min if i eat cereals.
ah well. i need to stay away from fb.
and im in a xmas mood. i wanna see snowflakes falling from the sky (though winter just ended a few weeks ago). wonder how im going to spend xmas this yr.
alright. shall start on another past year paper. wish me luck!

2008-11-05T05:11:00.003+08:00

cant wait to go kbox with pwen, go ikea for meatballs with sj, chill at timbre with sisterhood, attend the dress up party at zy's house, and, my date with luckyan and jan. and someone ought to organise a 'the rest' outing, cos chang demands for it.

sighh. exam's in less than a week's time and i havent started studying yet. >.<

and i feel so sick from drinking too much coffee. ah well. last socy essay for the sem.

2008-10-30T18:58:00.002+08:00

im super pissed off at my freaking gay stats tutor. he forgot to add 3marks to my second stats assignment. and i JUST realised he didnt give me 5marks for my first stats assignment. he's super gay pls. for goodness sake, he's a stats tutor and he cant even do basic addition. wah biang. what more to say bout him.
im super duper zzzzZZZzZZzzzZ. 5marks lehh. siannnnn. i better get my 5marks. damn pissed off.

socy essays

2008-10-24T13:09:00.003+08:00

all of us agree that, in order to churn out socy essays, we need the following essentials:
-socy lib books
-chocholate
-chips
-ice cream

while our dear lecturer cum tutor requires the following:
-wine
-more wine
-and even more wine

2008-10-14T18:21:00.002+08:00

im so freaked out. i just realised my major exam is in 4weeks' time. omg. and i missed the past 4bio lec, 3 stats lec, 1 socy lec and 1 psyc lec. im so screwed. x.X i always skip all my lessons just to chiong my essays. >.<
i've got a super bad feeling bout stats and bio exam. rahhhhh. chang should start mugging.

2008-10-14T12:24:00.005+08:00

felt very very sick ytd. i had a terrible stomachache throughout the day, but i had no time to care bout it cos i was rushing my socy essay. it was so bad i puked before i went out to print my essay, and puked again in the socy building itself. so ya. i spent the rest of the day/night puking.

it was so sad i had to call up the uni health service thing to book an appointment. i was told to wait till tmr morning to try again cos all the doctors were fully booked. >.< much love to zoe who drove me to see a doc. it's the nearest one and guess what, it took us 15-20mins to get there. ACT is freaking ulu. ah well.

it cost 60aussie dollar just for consulation. and i waited and puked for almost 1.5hrs before i finally get to see the doc. it's sooooo much cheaper to go to polyclinic in sg and i pay like 20sgd max, which incl. the cost of med? ah well. so anyway, i had gastic flu and fever. the doc was so weird, cos he only prescribed med for vomitting and that's it. i had to ask for med for my stomachache cos it hurt soo bad. and he was like, oh, it's fineee, it'll go away by itself. o.O and as for my fever, he replied, ohh, it's only 37.5degree, it's alright. >.< okie lo.

it totally sucks to fall ill here. lousy health care service. sighh. anyway, im glad im down with gastric flu and not food poisoning. the idea of me poisoning myself with my own cooking sucks. and it's scary too. >.< that's all for now.

holiday

2008-10-11T20:43:00.004+08:00

i need one more week of holiday. i've been slacking sooo much this holiday, now i've got no idea how to finish my socy essay and mug for psyc quiz. ah well.

chang's disappearing act I
i stayed at shirlyn's place throughout my trip in melby. she totally rocks. she fed me soooo well i gained so much wt within a short span of 5days.
anyway, aussie transportation system sucks big time. the train to melb was delayed by an hr. and, due to human error at the melb train station, we have to wait for a long time for another train to pull out from the wrong platform. urgh. shirlyn brought me to an italian restaurant for dinner and crown for dessert on the night i arrived. xD
the next morning, we went for sg day. we spent most of the time queuing up to get into the venue itself, collect goodie bags, balloons, food etc etc. we watched pck, the asian idol (whatever his name), dick lee etc performed at the event. the whole event was quite fun. met alot of ppl whom i didnt expect to see, like arlana, weijean (on the way home), singaporeans from anu. however, i still think that sgday was held mainly because they want to advertise sg, brainwash singaporeans to go back home, and lastly, meet up with fellow singaporeans. there was so much propaganda content in pck's performance. ohh ohh, they played a few national day songs too. it just feels like they're brainwashing ppl to go home. btw, i love the goodie bags xD
oh ya. before i left for melby, i planned to surprise annong by appearing at her doorstep. soo, i cooked up a story saying that my friend was interested in her course (so that i could get her apartment tel no.), and telling her that im going to syd and i may be sending her a postcard (so that i could get her address). BUT. i dunno when she's at home, so in the end, i gave up and called her to tell her im in syd. urghhh. so much for all my effort to surprise her >.< so the next morning, we met up at queen victoria market for breakfast and shopping. it is kinda of unbelievable that i actually met her up in aussie, not sg or hk. we didnt really meet up and stuff even when we were both in sg. still. im soo glad we both meet up. =D other than shopping and eating good food, i also went to u melb cos shirlyn had to go for lecture. her hol ends a week earlier than me. so i attended human anatomy and chemistry. human anatomy kinda freaked me out. the lecturer talked bout tooth, (bits chipped off from denture) etc dropping down the (i forgot the term) and it may end up in the patient's lungs. and the problems caused by LA if the patients are allergic or sentitive to it. scaryy. i always hate going to dentist; that lecturer just made things worse for me. mm. OH YA. my first night in melb. we met soooo many drunkards. first one kept shouting 'nasi lemak' for no reason. we kinda suspected that he thinks it's a vulgar word or sth. LOL. second one. he asked for direction to this particular street when it's just a few steps away. third one. two guys boo us from before and talked alot of rubbish which we didnt understand a single word. ahh. i forgot bout the rest already. and there's this guy who came up to us and asked if we wanted some chicken wings. totally random. so ya. that's all for melby. anyway, here are the links to photos i took in melb:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=45103&l=35877&id=690770734

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=45105&l=7c620&id=690770734

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=45109&l=0c717&id=690770734

chang's disappearing act II
zoe, ali and i went to syd the next day i arrived at canberra. we went to chinatown and fish market on the first day, bondi beach on the second day and featherdale wildlife park on the third day. in between, we went shopping. =D
i totally love the fish market. the seafood sold there are pretty cheap and fresh. i've been craving for seafood for sooo long cos canberra doesnt have fresh seafood like the ones in syd. it sucks when there's no port. i had grilled gem fish, scallops and calamari rings there xD
i love bondi beach too! it's such a lovely sight to behold. we played around on the beach cos the water was still too cold. still, we had loads of fun throwing sand at one another and burying our legs in the sand XD
went featherdale today. i love the koala, penguin and wombat. esp the wombat. the koalas are so piggish; they sleep so much la. wombats are so fat and cute. i totally want to kidnap one and bring it home =D oh ya. i didnt know white peacocks do exist. i always thought the photos of white peacock are photoshop-ed or sth. i was so amazed to see quite a few white peacocks today. they're such pretty but showy creatures. they spread out their feathers, wander about, and turn around in circles for ppl to take photos of it. tskkk. so showy.
anyway, here are the links to photos i took in syd:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=45555&l=3fc80&id=690770734

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=45557&l=d6e57&id=690770734

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=45559&l=23f8b&id=690770734

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=45561&l=c2801&id=690770734

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=45563&l=71e52&id=690770734

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=45566&l=57fed&id=690770734

so ya. that's all for now!

2008-09-25T19:42:00.008+08:00

i've been so busy this few weeks. been researching for psyc essay and writing it. i was soo happy i handed it in on time XD i only finished writing the 1973 words essay 25mins before the deadline (4pm). i had to chiong down to print it out, and walk to psyc building to hand it in. i submitted it 10mins to 4 =D lalaaaaa`

i took me forever to read the 8 psyc literature journals and the 6 library books i lugged all the way from hancock lib. formatting the essay to APA style wasted soooo much of my time. i need title page with running head, abstract (like wth! it's not even a research report), the format to cite ppl, and the reference list (i need to do what hanging indent thingie. whatever the technical name for it). and i realised im a super slow writer. i write arnd 50 or less words per hour. >.<

oh ya. i went for tammy's 21st bday party last friday. it was quite fun. we went to monkey bar, hang around till 12mn then went pancake palour. i went home when they were heading to another bar to hang out. so ya. here's the link to the photos i took:

http://www.new.facebook.com/album.php?aid=42695&l=b8b75&id=690770734

anyway, i've got a feeling this blog gonna turn into a food blog or sth. i've got soo many photos of food la. more photos of food to come! =P

went to sam's kitchen for lunch with aiping last fri afternoon.

this is suppose to be fried kway tiao

and this is hor fun.

and i've decided to reward myself with choco after working so hard for psyc essay. joy, ken and i went koko black to indulge =D

i was craving for krispy kreme during psyc lec today. so joy and i went civic to get some. on our way to mac (cos joy wants her 30cent mac ice cream), we walked past this pastry shop. and so...

joy's lemon cheesecake tart

and more chocolate for me! im not going to touch chocolate for at least half a mth. overdose of choco. >.<

krispy kreme! and of cos i dont intend to eat all. i gave two to my roomies. =)

oh nooo. i feel fattttttttt now. x.X

anyway anyway. chang would love to receive some snail mails from her friends. *hint hint* hahaha.

pissed

2008-09-13T18:40:00.004+08:00

pissed. i cant believe some people are just so immature. can totally die talking to them. they're loud, make alot of noise and complain over every single thing.
"so exxxx!" " this sucks la, make me go all the way xxx to collect my stuff." "i want to spend money.. i wanna go shopping!." "canberra sucks la. i should have gone uk so that i can shop." etc etc.
ex then dont buy lo. ship everything over even better. far then dont go and collect your parcel lo. complain so much. rich then go uk or states to study la. come here for what. if not, drive to syd to shop la. zZ. complain so much. it's really getting on my nerves.

im desperately trying to avoid u. im still talking to you cos i feel bad if i dont since you're a fellow singaporean who's taking the same course as me. still. there's a limit as to how much i can take.

i went grocery shopping with you merely because i feel bad for not going since you asked me out so many times. i felt you only need me there so that you wont look awkward shopping around with a trolley flooded with stuff. and, of cos, to help u look after your trolley when you ran off to grab stuff, and push the trolley for you when u went home. zZ.

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and you. i think i've been very very tolerant. i really cant stand all the noise you make every single day. it's either you're chatting so loudly, or laughing sooo hard at dunno what. it's really freaking irritating. and you do know that the walls are paper thin. i gonna go deaf if i keep blasting songs on my headphone. so pls, ~~shuddap~~ lower your volume.

2008-09-12T16:39:00.002+08:00

im so excited. i just booked my air tix today. i'll be flying on 26nov. transit at syd, then take sq back to sg. =D yay. so excited to go home!!! i've already planned out what to buy for who. XD
sadly, jiahui will be happily trotting around in london by the time im back. my twin~~

anyway, much love to pwen who mailed me my wardrobe of clothes. thankyou. =D

ahhhhh. i cant wait to return to sg and catch up with everyone (after they're done with their exam, which ends in dec).

i want to go:
kbox
night safariiiii
timbre
xin wang
shopping =P

i want to eat:
laksa
rojak
.
.
.
.
(and the list goes on and on) LOL.

2008-09-11T20:59:00.010+08:00

so tired. so glad it's gonna be weekend soon. it's been a long week. so sick of sch. i feel so burnt out. so many deadlines to meet. ah well. i was so burnt out i skipped sch on tues. i guess i deserved the break.

feeling so siann. dont feel like reading up reference literature journals for psyc essay. i'm asking for trouble for choosing the essay on "The Dark Triad of Personality:Machiavellianism, Narcissism and Psychopathy"; but it seems interesting. at least the developmental psyc question. it feels so gp-ish. rah. dunno la. if i cant make head or tail out of this qn, i'll do the developmental qn instead. i've already screwed up socy, i cant afford to screw up my major. ah well.

anyway, i was so siann. i ended up making onion rings just now. was craving for it last night. so i went online to look for recipe. so ya. i fried two onions worth of onion rings. it was so good my roomies ate quite alot XD

here are some of the random photos i took over the weekin the sch compound. it's really totally random. lol.

whineee

2008-09-08T17:58:00.003+08:00

feeling so brain dead. been rushing my socy essay for almost 27hrs non-stop. but i still missed the deadline. tammy smsed me a quarter to 4 to inform me that it's due at 4pm. so ya, there's no way i could have handed it on time unless i teleport. so siann. the sole reason why i chose to forgo sleep and rush my essay was so that i could hand it in time. and i kept telling myself that if i hand in on time, i'll reward myself with two champange truffles. rahh. sadded. shall edit my essay tonight and submit it tmr. ah well.

after im done with socy essay, it's time to start on psyc essay. =(
i cant wait for hols. im so excited bout staying over at zoe's place in syd and sg day in melby!!! (and i can poke ms shirlyn ong =D )

2008-09-04T21:24:00.003+08:00

this few weeks gonna be hell. esp this weekend. i have to churn out 1500words essay by monday. and i dont even know my content. so dead.

screwed up bio this morning. it was soooo bad. i actually forgot the function of luteinizing hormone and follicle stimulating hormone. so i screwed up 10mks worth of qns. sadded. and the worst was that i've never ever seen some terms that popped up in the paper before. sth complete anxxxx xxxxx. dunno what. i think it's some chromosome and gene mutation. during psyc lecture, the guy from my psyc tut asked us how we find the paper. and he actually said the paper was pretty okie O______________O ah well.

i shall write more when im done with socy essay. gonna start mugging socy. i hate socy.

rainy winter night

2008-08-31T20:38:00.003+08:00

i thought im doing fine. but. everytime dad called, i ended up crying when i hang up. i miss home. i miss everyone.
i haven really been myself here. i want to go home. really badly. =(
crap. cant stop crying now.

2008-08-22T22:27:00.009+08:00

nothing much to blog about. here are the random photos i took over the past few days. yupp.

the enormous strawberry and the baby strawberry

tonight was my turn to prepare dinner. so ya. chicken with potatoes, and stewed veggie.

and i finally get to eat mooncake after craving for it for so many days. it's really tiny, but still, it's mooncake. much love to zoe's mom who brought it here from syd.

and yes. i love my bedsheets. they totally look cheerful. the previous bedsheets made my room so dull. im not a great fan of hello kitty. but ya. the hello kitty bedsheets really look pretty =)

2008-08-19T22:27:00.004+08:00

i forgot to include this photo in my previous post. this was taken from the driving handbook which everyone has to mug for the driving theory test. i found it quite amusing. horse traffic. lol. i haven seen any kangaroos yet, let alone horses! lol.

and this is a super huge strawberry. it's slightly smaller than my palm! (thou it doesnt show very well in this photo)

it's so huge and pretty i cant help but pose with the strawberry =)

im super happy today. it's my first time eating out (at a proper place, food court and fast food chains are not counted). had dinner with zoe at uni pub. they have this special promotion every tues night. chicken cutlet with salad and bread only cost 5bucks.

bus ride

2008-08-16T17:59:00.011+08:00

accompanied ali to canberra hospital since she didnt know how to get there and she didnt want to get lost alone. so yupp. took bus 5 to get there. took lotsa photos. i totally love the pretty blue sky and fluffy clouds here.

the cute mushroom shaped church :)

and. im soooooo happy. singapore finally got a medal. it's so sad to see my housemates cheering for china and adding up the medals they won everyday. finally. XD

oh ya oh ya. im happppppppyyy today. i passed my driving theory test today. i only spent an afternoon studying for it. 35qns. i failed my first attempt cos i answered qn33 wrongly and i failed instantly. bleah. i got pissed, cos i did 33qns already. so i had a second attempt. and i passed. XD lalaaaa`

2008-08-14T21:19:00.003+08:00

been very busy with sch work. mug for psyc quiz, chiong socy reading, stats tut, bio assignment etc etc. so no time to blog.
anyway, the heater in my room died last sat and it took them forever to fix it. i felt like a penguin in a freezer for sooo many nights cos i had to wear lots of clothes cos it gets really cold esp at night.
i only managed to watch the last 30mins of ndp online after procrastinating for so long as to whether i should go for live screening at the tank. the fireworks wasnt very nice. at least from what i saw online. a bit disappointing. yupp.
i think im addicted to tv. i watch a bit of olympics in the afternoon, friends and so you think you can dance/ top model at night. we used to watch simpsons as well, but we decided to cut down on tv hrs. anyway, i totally loveeeeee katee and joshua. they rock, stone and pebble! =)
mm. guess that's all for now.
anyway, i took a few photos of the comic strip that are pasted on the window thingie at BoZo. thought it was pretty funny. at least bio ppl have some sense of humour.

time table

2008-08-04T13:42:00.002+08:00

tada! the long overdue photo of my timetable :)

updates

2008-08-02T19:42:00.003+08:00

loads of love and thanks to pwen for all the trouble and time she spent to ship me my rice cooker, shoes, bag and foolscap paper! <3 i can finally have rice for meals. =D

i've been chionging drama during weekdays, so i ended up sleeping at 2plus 3am for a few days. ended up going for lectures dead tired. and i started off with bio lectures for a few consecutive days. i had totally no idea what's going on, since i was dead tired and i've got no bio background. i totally love fridays. cos theres's only psyc lecture from 9-11 and then it's the start of the weekend! i mugged a bit at hancock lib after the psyc lecture ytd to do some catching up for bio. i still have a hell load to catch up esp for psyc and sociology. i haven even printed out the slides for the second socy lecture la. screwed. and i've not done my socy reading either. same for psyc. i think i spent the most time studying for bio, then stats (even thou stats stinks). oh well. i'll do some reading up later. no more dramas for me for the coming week.

my portable hdd pisses me off. it died for no reason. rah. i cant back up my com and stuff. zzzzzzzz. and the portable hdd is like, a mth old?! RAH. maxtor sucks.

anyway, we baked brownie today! =D ali, zoe, anqing and i went grocery shopping. zoe and ali wanted to buy brownie mix but i insisted that we start from scratch. since im the one paying 99% of the total cost incurred, i had the final say. anyway, we had a really fun time preparing and baking the brownies. =D the first batch was totally chocolatey, the second one had ALOT of walnuts while the last batch was the cinnamon one. i totally love the second batch cos of the walnuts. =D anyway, our brownies were soooooooooooooooooo tasty and smelled so great that two girls at the common area came over and asked if we made from scratch and had a look at our recipe. XD we even thought of selling the brownies. 1 for 75cents, 3 for $2.60. LOL. joy and amanda came over to our apartment for brownie and ice cream. and i cooked fried rice for dinner for the three of us (me, zoe and ali) since i was sooooo sick of washing dishes. zoe and i cleaned the apartment today (wipe the counters, sinks and what not, vacuum the apartment etc etc.), washed the dishes for lunch since zoe made pasta for everyone, and i washed the stuff used to bake brownie. and i've been washing dishes for almost every meal since ali cooked for us, almost every meal. my poor hands. they gonna be like old ah ma's hands in no time. >.< i applied my hand moisturizer 4x today. rah.

anyway, here's the link to the photos we took while baking brownie http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=35937&l=61d5b&id=690770734
so ya. that's all for now! :)

2008-07-24T19:21:00.000+08:00

You Are An ISFJ

The Nurturer

You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.
A good listener, you excel at helping others in practical ways.
In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.
You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.

In love, you express your emotions through actions.
Taking care of someone is how you love them. And you do it well!

At work, you do well in a structured environment. You complete tasks well and on time.
You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

How you see yourself: Competent, dependable, and detail oriented

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Boring, dominant, and stuck in a rut

What's" Your Personality Type?

photos

2008-07-24T18:40:00.007+08:00

finally, no more bread, potato salad, boiled sausages or fried herbs and garlic rissoles (frozen) for dinner! =D ali cooked the fried rice, while i helped out by chopping the onions (which made both of us cry while chopping it) and making the curry sauce (from ready made paste).

anyway, we had bush dance and dinner thingie on tues evening. didnt manage to take alot of photos cos my cam batt was very low.

photo taken within the campus when we were on our way to union house. quite pretty ya. =)

updates

2008-07-18T18:23:00.008+08:00

all the rooms in my apartment are taken up. it's an all girls apartment :) so there's audrey, vivian, alison, zoe and me. we decided to spice things up a bit, since the apartment looks pretty boring.

we used one of the curtains which ali brought as table cloth, and the other one we hang it up.

TADA! (refer to the photo of the common area in the previous post. such a great contrast!)

oh ya. i cooked my meal today; the very first time since i arrived in canberra. hee. no photos were taken in the process of cooking cos i was very busy. and you wouldnt want to see how i cooked my food anyway. so ya. the fruit of labour:-

(it took me almost 2hrs to prepare this!)

after a week in canberra

2008-07-15T20:56:00.007+08:00

surviving. not yet died of starvation, since i've bought plenty of bread and ready made pasta salad to keep me going.

got to know a group of singaporeans here during enrolment. i've been so lonely for the past week cos i have no friends, other than my housemates.

mm. lazy to cont'd blogging. shall update everyone soon. anyway, just email me or leave me an offline msg on msn i'll reply. =)

and yes. here are a few photos of my apartment and room. i know it's messy, but it's at least 500x neater than my room back in sg. so ya.

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fears, uncertainty, future beholds

2008-07-07T01:02:00.002+08:00

i dont want to sleep. everything will no longer be the same when i wake up tmr.

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this better be what i really want, cos there's no room for regrets. i chose this path.

nostalgic

2008-06-23T10:36:00.002+08:00

it feels so weird. i woke up at 1030. no alarms screaming at 610. no longer the need to rush after 969. no need to reach blk 17 by 0800. it really feels weird.

i'll miss everyone. chris, jessie, rich khoo, rich lee, shirley, elsie, soh, john from store and doris from purchasing. good bye chong pang camp.

2008-06-06T20:02:00.002+08:00

everything seems so daunting. there's so much to do, so much to prepare. i dont know what to start with.

at least there's less uncertainty. i know where im going. more or less.

2008-04-24T20:01:00.002+08:00

so that's it.
im left with ~~not much of a choice~~ no choice.
=(

pizza!

2008-02-16T21:49:00.002+08:00

feeling so bloody shitty today. after wasting sooooooooo many days chionging the two damn essays, usd40bucks for feees, dhl twice, im told i missed the deadline or app incomplete, so that's how they reject me. zzzzzzzz. walau.

birthday wish.

2008-01-26T18:30:00.000+08:00

i know this is a bit early. but still.

please get the Yomigaeri (aka 黄泉がえり) dvd as my bday present. pretty pretty please.
i also want 月亮忘记了and 微笑的鱼 by 幾米.
i want them so badly.
that's all for my bday wish list.

but most importantly, please pray that i'll get into UM. im desperate. =(

2008-01-18T00:21:00.000+08:00

i feel so ridiculous and selfish. but i cant help it.
i need to run away and hide again.

i realise i cant deal with people. it's so complicated.

mm.

2008-01-13T22:38:00.001+08:00

i feel spastic. all the while i've been complaining bout school. but suddenly, i kinda miss the hotdog bun days, potluck days, rotting in my little corner of library on the second floor, gossiping/slacking in the lit room with lights off before lit lesson begins, etc. ahh. i miss the lit room and the fun times we had.

ahhh.

2007-12-28T17:32:00.001+08:00

i tried. but im too tired now.
goodbye.

finally

2007-11-20T19:54:00.000+08:00

bloody pissed. i want wireless internet at home so i can hide in my room all day and use hp to surf the net whenever i want. i hate ppl who love to report on me. RAH.

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anyway, im done with my essays for UM. a big thank you to aishu, shirlyn, glenn, peewee and shaun! thanks for your help! =D

poem by mr coleridge

2007-11-18T21:11:00.000+08:00

one of my fav poems by mr S.T. coleridge.

Limbo

'Tis a strange place, this Limbo !--not a Place,
Yet name it so ;--where Time & weary Space
Fettered from flight, with night-mair sense of fleeing,
Strive for their last crepuscular half-being ;--
Lank Space, and scytheless Time with branny hands
Barren and soundless as the measuring sands,
Not mark'd by flit of Shades,--unmeaning they
As Moonlight on the dial of the day !
But that is lovely--looks like Human Time,--
An Old Man with a steady Look sublime,
That stops his earthly Task to watch the skies ;
But he is blind--a Statue hath such Eyes ;--
Yet having moon-ward turn'd his face by chance,
Gazes the orb with moon-like countenance,
With scant white hairs, with foretop bald & high,
He gazes still,--his eyeless Face all Eye ;--
As 'twere an organ full of silent Sight,
His whole Face seemeth to rejoice in Light !
Lip touching lip, all moveless, bust and limb,
He seems to gaze at that which seems to gaze on him !

No such sweet sights doth Limbo Den immure,
Wall'd round, and made a Spirit-jail secure,
By the mere Horror of blank Naught-at-all,
Whose circumambience doth these Ghosts enthral.
A lurid thought is growthless, dull Privation,
Yet that is but a Purgatory curse ;
Hell knows a fear far worse,
A fear--a future fate.--'Tis positive Negation !

buying hope

2007-11-17T17:38:00.000+08:00

i've always wanted to be a psychologist. ever since i stop entertaining the thought of becoming a teacher, astronaut, etc etc in primary school.

i have to submit an essay on why i choose that course, and then i realise i dont know what exactly a psychologist does for a living. i feel spastic.

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quite worried. im not even done with my essays. i've already missed the early response deadline (screw hotmail!). and i only realise a few hours ago that the earlier i send in my application, the higher the chance of getting in. today's the 17th day after the early response deadline. great.

i see no hope in getting into a local uni. i've no faith in my A level result. even thou 26th nov will then conclude the end of A level. applying overseas is more of, buying a hope.

hp gone.

2007-10-07T18:32:00.000+08:00

i lost my hp. i'll be uncontactable these few days.
crap. i've got no mood to do anything now. i cant live without my hp. and i realise, i can only 2people's hp no. not my bro or dad's nos. pathetic.

zZ. what's wrong again.

2007-10-03T20:38:00.000+08:00

weep, weep, weep,
my prized possession's gone.

but no one in sight,
It was an apparition. maybe.

sweep,sweep,sweep,

the pile of mess left behind by invader.

fine. i follow suit.

2007-09-22T22:53:00.000+08:00

well said. i totally agree.
there's no need for me to bother anymore.

lyrics from L'Ultima Notte

2007-09-01T21:43:00.001+08:00

Fingerò mi abituerò
Continuerò in silenzio senza te.

emo.

2007-08-27T20:18:00.001+08:00

i want not lupus, coral teeth nor purple eyes. soma alone will just be fine.
it's happening all over again.
i just want to run away and hide.

pissed!

2007-08-20T20:58:00.000+08:00

you volunteered for the post. so do your duties properly.
stop pretending that you're oh-so-innocent and diligent in carrying out the teacher's instructions. your bloody face piss me off.
dont go around telling everyone im so fierce. you deserve it.

and regarding someone who has yet to earn my respect.
please stop behaving like you're all-knowing.
dont argue with me when you dont know a thing.

RAH.

bitch

2007-08-06T21:13:00.001+08:00

shit? ah. they're too easy on you.
well. arent you curious how i define BITCH?

Hell

2007-07-29T23:07:00.000+08:00

Limbo of the Patriarchs glee in delight,
"Forsooth! thy soul Banished to Hell?"

i cant forget the moment when my soul was ripped out of the Book.

ikea meatballs. kor and i patched up

2007-07-22T00:58:00.000+08:00

im happy today. finally there's someone to pei wo eat ikea meatballs. :D
but im even happier that T and i finally patch up. after 4plus years dao-ing one another. :D:D:D
and i still think i should the first one to apologise. cos im the one who created all this mess.
sorry.

bored

2007-07-14T21:53:00.001+08:00

i was bored. so i made another quiz. hope everyone will fail this time round :D

Create your own Friend Test here

sad

2007-07-11T21:50:00.000+08:00

i feel so _________ .
i want to eat ikea meatballs. but everyone lives so far away. even if it's not the case, they're probably too busy mugging their guts out.

expected

2007-07-07T23:39:00.000+08:00

i see it coming. but i didnt expect it to be so soon.
it doesnt matter anyway.

random

2007-07-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

it's unfair. dolls have nicer clothers and cuter toys than humans. eeek. what logic is this. just look. i want this toys for MYSELF =(=(=( sponsors anyone?

anyway, she's really chio.

and he's such a pretty boy!

and. i want this ring! it looks sooo delicious.

i feel so guilty for spending so much. i bought:

white top from MU $35.10

yellow top from Zara $19.90

pencil case from Flah n Splash $26

shoes from PrettyFit $55

bag from Carlo Rino $64

ah well. well. it's once in a while. so it's okie. convince me so. :)

go take my test (:

2007-06-30T00:10:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

30hrs famine camp

2007-06-17T22:23:00.000+08:00

i managed to survive through 30hrs famine camp. it was like an-omg-experience cos i love to eat but could not consume any food, and i get to know how it feels like to be in poverty (in third world countries).

tracy, xl, zhiyan, sisterhood (minus hy), gu tou, glenn, nivedh, hongwei and mingwah went for the camp. i was so irritated. most of them are in Ethiopia. zZz. so i was alone, stuck in Cambodia. made friends with alexis, audrey, sharon, patrick and victor etc as they're part of my 'family', aka SpongeBob.

day1 was pretty tiring and i couldnt sleep that night. too cold, the sleeping bag did not provide enough cushioning my back hurt, ppl snoring etc. day2 was better. other than collecting newspaper at tampines blk 443 and surrounding area, i was either stoning, or playing cards, bingo, picturenary (whatever the spelling) or sleeping. yupp. oh ya. there was this ah-ma making dumplings at the void deck when we went arnd collecting newspaper. i had this sudden craving for laksa and dumplings i sms dad to buy 2 dumplings for me to eat when i reach home. i totally love my dad. :D:D:D ohh. and there's this little girl who called me 'auntie' -.- so horrible. asked her to call me 'jie jie' instead but she refused la. zZz.

anyway, we had to queue for bk burger when we break fast. bk fish burger tasted fantastic. patrick was irritating, cos he ate his choco bar right away when the 30hrs was up but we had to slowly walk to registration area and then wait for food to arrive. rah.

but but but. it's over. i hope i shed some weight. heehee =)

poem

2007-06-08T00:46:00.000+08:00

谁道秋下一心愁，
谁说目垂就能睡。
是否心亡就能忘，
卒酒无泪只能醉。

kow wanted me to acknowledge her contribution, cos she was the one who smsed me the poem. The following is what she wants to see in my blog: “.. jia min sent me a nice poem. It wasn’t composed by her, but I wouldn’t hesitate to believe her if she said she did..”

誰道心上原有愿，
誰說日月真能明，
是否心意能成憶，
雨下相思徒成霜。

anyway, i found this online when i went to research on the above poem. yupp. tt’s supposed to match the above poem. sth like 对联. so cool. but the poem kow sent me is much much nicer. lol.

loser

2007-05-29T21:03:00.000+08:00

i cant believe i have to do this. i feel so guilty.
i feel totally loserish.
you wont understand. do u?

:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:((

i've decided to disappear again.

pirates of the caribbean: at world's end

2007-05-27T22:47:00.000+08:00

aishu, pish, huiying and i went to watch pirates today. we were supposed to have dinner at cartel together but after pish and hy got their tix, it was too late. i still crave for cartel thou. anyway, my dearest aishu rawks! free movie tix and discount for nachos too. :D

orlando bloom is really hot. keira knightley is OMG hot too. the ending suck. why can they only see each other once every 10years. zZzz. lousy ending. okie. at least he didnt die. anyway. i like the movie cos the plot is pretty nice, the effects are good, there's orlando bloom and keira knightly, and, the soundtrack is awesome. :) i want the soundtrack!

anyway, i wanna watch priceless. takers?

"Did no one come to save me just because they missed me?"
"Cruelty is only a matter of perception."
--Jack Sparrow

class chalet

2007-05-20T01:19:00.000+08:00

today is really fun. tracy, huiting and i went to swing at the playground at changi beach. it's so amusing to see them swing. huiting cant swing (cos her mom pushed her everytime she swing when she's a little kid. lol). tracy couldnt stop laughing, and she dont know how to make the swing stationary. lol. i love to swing, esp when i get to face the sea. it's my all-the fave spot at changi beach.

it's kinda funny. we are reviving our childhood memories while the two little kids next to us are creating memories. but i guess they wont remember huiting and i for being so nice as to help them swing higher a few hrs later.

i want to go the changi beach again! (:

on a side note, i prefer downtown east to changi chalet. it gives me creeps. mmm.

SRT's midsummer's night dream

2007-05-19T01:10:00.001+08:00

i like walking alone in drizzle, esp late at night. if not for the threatening lightning, i would have stayed in the park longer.

anyway, char, sijie and i went to watch SRT's A Midsummer's Night Dream. it's such a pity we didnt remember to bring mat, nor wine glasses and orange juice. fort canning park was filled with people (lotsa ang mos) on picnic mats, drinking wine out of wine glasses. so nice. i'll consider bringing them the next time.

there was this ang mo who almost spoiled my day. it's not as if that my day was good to begin with. i spent almost 1.5hrs trying to remove the hardened super glue on my hand in the day and he just had to piss me off in the evening. he flared up when we sat at the empty grass patch which was meant to be his leg room. like wth. if everyone did that, there wont be enough place for everyone to sit. selfish creature! even if he really wanna chop the area, he should have placed a mat or some stuff there la. luckily, another ang mo who sat beside him lectured him and told us to ignore the former and just sit there, which we did.

the play was really nice and funny! i really want the teddy bear dressed in pink, which belongs to Hermia. it's so so so cute! (:

Love can transpose to form and dignity.
Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind;
And therefore is wing'd Cupid painted blind.
Nor hath love's mind of any judgment taste;
Wings and no eyes figure unheedy haste:
And therefore is love said to be a child,
Because in choice he is so oft beguil'd
-A Midsummer Night's Dream- (act1, scene1)

irritated

2007-05-17T13:54:00.000+08:00

i was so disturbed by the conversation and behaviour of this two women i saw on the bus on my way to sch this morning, i have to blog about this.

i doubt they're wealthy since they took a bus instead of cab, but they behave like some rich taitai. firstly, they're so fat and clumsy they kept banging into people around them. they looked so horrible; they have to hide their winkles and whatsoever under a thick thick layer of powder till their faces looked like nothing but a palatte of colours.

it's not as if they really care about chivalry. just because they did not manage to find themselves seats, they accused students, especially male students of not exercising chivalry. ok lo. sarcasm was evident in their conversation too. "I want to do a write-up on the students. They can sleep while sitting, leaning and even standing, yet they manage to get off at the right stops." it's so obvious they're implying that we students are all pretending to sleep so that we need not give up our seats to elderly like them. to begin with, they dont even look old enough to make me want to give up my seat (if i happen to be seated) for either of them. irritating creatures. oh yes. they dont even refer to students as 'people', 'students' or whatsoever. they simply term us as 'things'. wow wow wow.

they behave in such unglam fashion i cant stand the sight of them. rolling up their pants because they felt ants crawling up their legs or sth. eeew. and they keep complaining about not getting a seat. pls la. if you want a seat during morning rush hr and not squeeze among the students, kindly consider taking a cab instead.

when the bus passed by yck mrt station, they saw a trail of aj students walking towards sch. they exclaimed, "ohh. poor students! they have to walk such a long way to sch." amazemunt. or rather, amusment. they cant even walk the distance of 500-600metres. wow. such well-kept women!

好马不吃回头草

2007-05-13T14:12:00.001+08:00

thanks for the memories. really.

syf

2007-05-12T14:52:00.000+08:00

so it's over.

3plus 4months of band. thou i may whine, complain and get pissed with certain stuff, i like the experience playing in band. interact may be meaningful and slack, but i love playing clarinet more.

yesterday was an eventful day. first, we were caught in the morning jam and reached sch later than the reporting time. next, we were on the way to the tuning room when the rest of the people from the other bus arrived. so scary. fast forward. i was walking towards my seat when i bang into the stand and it fell. totally embarrassing la. i stone there for so long not knowing if i should pick up the stand or cont'd to walk. joash picked it up in the end while i cont'd to walk to prevent a jam or sth. what a way to malu myself la.

the result wasnt all unexpected. i was mentally prepared but. ah well. what a way to end my really last syf. it was even sadder cos vj was sitting beside us and they got goh while we. so ya. such contrast.

waterworks everywhere. we were still there when all other bands left. we went raffles city cafe cartel to cheer ourselves up. waited for a million yr before we got a seat. lousy service. ate salad and delicious peach ice cream :)

what a way to end my last day in band.

[i'll miss 'k-boxing' on the bus, singing the songs from yifang's hp while everyone's asleep (or so i thought)]

2007-05-09T21:20:00.000+08:00

screwed up chem test. expected to fail, but i didnt foresee i'll hand up empty script. tmd. to think that i studied so hard despite my really tight schedule.
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i feel loved. tracy prepared breakfast for me yesterday and today, knowing that my parents are overseas and i reach home everyday too late to buy bread. :):):)
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i hereby declare that 801.9 is my territory. it's a really really nice place tracy found. more condusive than the area outside choir room cos there's air con and you cant hear pe teachers terrorizng people. plus. i can sit in umglam positions, stay away from the tempting coms on lvl1, and gao zi bi.
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just know that i still need to go back to sch for lessons after syf. bah. i still need to go for econ tutorial. eeeew. loohcs reggum.

it's a long long week

2007-05-03T13:32:00.000+08:00

this is a long long week. band+hw+math test+SAT= screwed. im dead tired and sick.

wed was fun. xiangling, sijie and i brought cornflakes and milk for breakfast. :D:D:D i felt like a glutton after eating 6servings. ohh and i only attended 2hrs of lessons in total. how slack. i love wednesdays. went amk lib to mug for math test after sch. was so disgusted to see ah beng ah lian-like students in sch uniform smoking and fooling around in groups. eeeew.

oh yes. thanks to mr xyz and the bunch of irritating people who refused to own up, i will have to waste another 1.5hrs in sch doing torturing stuff.

i ~~need~~ a break.

school life

2007-04-25T17:55:00.000+08:00

i am a happy girl for now because i can finally say goodbye to afternoon pe soon :D:D:D for the very first time, i got a decent grade for 2.4, shuttle run and broad jump. damn tyco. but charrisa the penguin refused to believe.

i am a happy girl because i have a very nice bro. he bought me a box of my all time favorite almond roca when im so frustrated and fed up with all the stupid tutorials and gp environment essay (which i still owe, and it was due last last wk. screwed la.) and really long cca hrs.

i feel bad for going to math and chem tutorials without even trying to write something down. probabilty, vectors and complex nos are too chim to comprehend. so is organic chem. it took me 2plus plus hrs to read carboxylic acid notes. till now i still dont understand dear mr coleridge's poems. and i realise darcy is (kinda) superficial, he likes eliza cos of her pretty eyes. so disappointing, but i still like him as always. haha. i've gone mad. (but. i cant be worse than ctp^3. she has a love-hate relationship with her wobbly fats. and she loves to complain bout her fats when im next to her -.-)

bah.

someone

2007-04-15T19:21:00.000+08:00

im amazed by you. you tell everyone how things should be done as if you know the stuff better than i do. you play better than me too, im sure, since you love and (dying) to play the added parts so much so that you can flaunt your skills and whatever. or should i say, you're far superior in your skills to have the final say on how things should be done. and sure. i love my new seating arrangement now. thank you soo much.

for goodness sake. you're not even a ex-SL in silver band.

random

2007-04-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

i feel safe, blasting songs into my ears.

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finally give in to temptation. pwen is such a bad influence.

pwoof. and there goes 7.50.

updates

2007-04-02T08:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ANNONG! :):):)

it so happened to be your bday when i finally get hold of a com to blog :)
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im disappointed in you.
but i can still smile and talk. it isnt very hard i guess.
enough said.
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my favourite piece for the concert is Variations of School Bell Theme. whatever it's called. the composer rawks and his work is nice. he wrote the first draft when he's in J1. like, omg. so pro!
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although it's a long long time ago. but. THANK YOU EVERYONE (okie, not every single one) for making my 18th bday a memorable one :):):)

40 kinds of sadness

2007-03-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

i know something's wrong somewhere all this while but i pretend everything's alright.
i cant go on pretending. so i choose to run away.

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i was sad. extremely sad when you told me you're leaving at the end of this month. i wish you dont have to go. =(=(=( ah well.

talking to myself

2007-03-03T17:01:00.000+08:00

disappointment. one after another one. but they're not at all unexpected i guess.
it doesnt really matter. words. they dont mean/worth a thing.

goodbye.

busy bee

2007-03-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

im on the verge of disappearing to my own world. just realised i have not blog for weeks. feb had been a busy month, and it will be so till syf is over in may.

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convincing myself, that it was a long long time ago. it's the only truth in all this illusion.

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impermanence; that incident set me thinking for the whole of yesterday night.

psycho myself.

2007-01-30T20:55:00.000+08:00

since others can cope with it, so can i.
since X can finish all her tutorials and even find time to exercise, so can i.
i should just try harder.

charissa is -irritating-

2007-01-25T13:23:00.000+08:00

charissa is being irritating. ignore her blog post bout me. nowadays i have nothing/ dont know what to blog about. feel obliged to blog. yupx. i want to gao zi bi. (:

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i dont know why u chose to make up this crap. lies. more lies. u're so disappointing.
do u really think i'm that naive. stop wasting your sms. i have no intention to reply. i've already splurged on unnecessary sms.

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run away. hide. i feel so small.

new year

2007-01-02T19:55:00.000+08:00

falling into depression, once again.

2007. school is starting in less than 12hrs' time. i dread it. untouched, misplaced holiday hw. more hw, tests, mugging. i hate it. kow is so eager to get back to sch so that she can see all her friends. im envious of her. enough said.

backtrack to 24dec. kow and i went for staff xmas party (which only started at 0030), which we had a great time. anyway, im working at coffee club, hotel rendezvous branch, together with yy and kow. yup. sharil and i kept talking bout band stuff. he's pro, he knew alot bout dhssb syf pieces and other bands as well, when he was from field. ended up reaching home bout 4am.

25dec. too lazy to go for 6/11 gathering. and i heard it was cancelled due to poor response. ended up sleeping thro the entire day. sad lonely xmas. haha.

27dec. jiahui, aishu, stelly and hw visited me during my shift. after im off duty, we went to watch eragon (a so-so movie, which is oh-so predictable. haha). dont know why, but i was quite siann. even thou i did look forward to the sisterhood outing. ah well.

the below pics are random pics i took at coffee club when i was bored.

yy floating towards the bar

food for xmas party

kow and chang! =) i just love confusing charleston with our name.

(this post is specially written for karen khor. hahaha.)

just another wk

2006-12-14T21:02:00.000+08:00

im not in a blogging mood for a long long tym. so ya.

started work on mon. standing for 4hrs straight in court shoes is suicidal. and time seem to pass so slowly. at least i wasnt walking abt like a lost soul (private joke), more of a stoning statue at the door. malu minor accidents aside, it was quite okie. plus the customers i served were nice and polite. a good start i guess.

pwen and i were down for kettling at tm ytd. it was fun. haha. got to see lotsa cute (poke-able) kids who were attraced to the bottle of sweets pwen was holding. pwen is oh-so-lousy at ringing bell! haha. the bells reminded us of lu han lin, who once talk abt using the bell to 招魂 during lesson time.

oh ya. there's this cute little in pink, who was fascinated by the bell. she kept walking towards us. i almost wanted to take a pic with her. she's soo cute. and there's another girl who came up to us and asked if the sweets are free, then she grabbed a handful of sweets and ran away. a few hrs later, she reappeared and grabbed another handful of sweets. interesting.

irritating ppl is FUN :D esp when you're doing for a good cause. and get cip hrs. haha. i seriously pity the newspaper vendor nearby. he have to endure constant ringing for so many hrs for so many wks. oh ya. there's this ah pek who actually slept so soundly, while we're making such a din. i wanna go kettling again! :D:D:D

disclaimer: im not pedophiliac =)

tada!

2006-11-20T22:00:00.000+08:00

this is so cute and poke-able. drag those ball ball and let it fall. =)

06S63 chalet

2006-11-15T23:31:00.000+08:00

something i looked forward to, after 3hrs of econ lecture and another 3hrs of math remedial.

The Day Before

"bu shuang issit? these are all MINE!"

after all the hard work

D Day

while they were struggling to start the fire...

later..

a not-so nice pic (it wasnt me who did it)..

disclaimer:
In case of food poisoning, contact The Great Chefs: jh, daniel, aishu, glenn, hw etc. i -ONLY- prepare the food. it cant go wrong this time round.

i watched it sink

2006-10-30T21:11:00.000+08:00

the paper parted from my fingers.

the thuderstorm ceased. the tide ebbed.
stranded in no man's land; fate sealed.

i turned. set off from reality.

i watched it sink. swallowed.
into the still water. into the floor of the sea.

this bleeding wound.
it hurts so much.

despair

2006-10-17T22:26:00.000+08:00

tell me this is just a nightmare
everything will be fine tomorrow.

my hp is currently in coma.

xmas mood!

2006-10-07T21:13:00.001+08:00

im in a christmas mood! daiso and some many other shops are already selling xmas deco. i wonder how i'll spend my xmas this year.
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i was sitting on 86 some morning ago and i so happened to sit with this trio who were boasting about their experience on public canning. apparently they have no sense of shame. seriously speaking, i have not heard of public canning since primary sch. and there they were happily boasting and telling lies that were so obvious one must be dumb not being able to see it. i sure see alot of interesting people on the bus every morning, ranging from a mentally unstable ah pek, kiasu woman to people who blast their music so loudly into their ears i can hear the songs metres away.
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i dread getting back promo result. enough said.

pissed off

2006-09-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

i get pissed off easily these days. i dont know why.
so please. stay away.

random

2006-09-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

darkness seeping, creeping in,
feeding on terror, murdering lost souls.
what is there left in this crazy world,
in await for the awakening sun?

the above nonsense was written when im half asleep while rotting at coffee bean yesterday.

pissed

2006-09-17T14:06:00.000+08:00

im so amazed. people actually derived happiness/satisfaction from knowing that others are slacking while they are slogging their brains and guts out.
i do not need to know that you're mugging. neither am i interested. and if you have not realise, i dont even feel like talking to you. i only replied out of courtesy. thank you very much.
enough said.

i dont want to go back to school.

2006-09-10T11:59:00.000+08:00

i dont want to go back to school.
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I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL. EEW.

random.

2006-08-30T13:27:00.000+08:00

people are stressed because they cant finish their work. im stressed out by the fact that im still slacking. im so not motivated. i dont feel like doing anything anymore.
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kow, dom and someone-whom-i-dont-know came down to aj last fri to celebrate siang ning's bday. it feels so good to see familiar faces. after all, kow has been my classmate/sch mate for 10yrs 3mths.

pish, aishu, liying, mingwah and i went to hw's house after sch on mon. it was quite weird, since im not involved in the vj carnival thingie this coming sat. kinda out of place. but still. seeing them and eating choco-covered fruits make me happy. it reminded me of the past- making tangyuan at pish's hse and stuff. i hate being neither here nor there.
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this is sth i chanced upon when i randomly click on the url of people's blogs in aj lib com.

"We're students, from Anderson Junior College, which, in case you didn't know, is so boring that people actually become couples so that they have something to look forward to in school."

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im really looking fwd to teachers' day. so that everyone can meet up again. i miss the rest. 4A. and everyone. i hate changes. both jyps and dhs are moving sites by the end of the year. and sadly. i wont be going back to jyps on teachers' day this year.

random

2006-08-18T22:14:00.000+08:00

the previous post was deleted, for my own safety reasons.

blogs have never been more dangerous these days. you never know who's prying into your life, your thoughts, hunting for evidences to crush you.

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feeling random.

im happy.
(i)we're doing Pride and Prejudice as one of the lit text. yes yes! my dear mr darcy :D im sooo looking forward to lit lessons (on this text, and ONLY this text). Herland and Brave New World seem boring. well. on second thought, these two books cant be worse than Coleridege's poems.

(ii)i feel like a glutton. ate thai express followed by fries at macs. met karen mok. she's such a big big liar. and. karen, i didnt fall into your trick! >.<

im amused.
(i)by company no1 and no2 aka grouchy and trace at the lib today. they're so nonsense. i totally embarrassed myself.
(ii)charrisa's blog.
(iii)phantom no. 2! my drawing rawks!
(iv)shirong's bimbotic moves. and the video i recorded.
(v)by the name 'kukumalu'

im irritated.
(i)there's millions of tutorials and hw to do.
(ii)EoM draftONE due on fri
(iii)econs class test on thurs
(iv)i feel so not motivated to start mugging.

im depressed.
(i)i miss jan and her free concerts.
(ii)i miss luckyan and her food which i gUP during recess.
(iii)i miss taking the sch bus, sitting beside irene.
(iv)i miss the route i take to go home.
(v)i miss all the nice teachers back at dhs.
(vi)i miss band pracs and my baby clarinet.
(vii)i miss everything. and everyone.

bah. i totally hate jc life.